DeWayne here,,well another promising porn model calls it quits after being abused & swindled by the shady side of Gay Porn.In explaining his severence of ties to Gay Porn Blair Mason wrote the following final enty on his blog “This is Blair” he deleted his blog on Nov 22,2007.
I plan on keeping this post in the back end of my Blog for future reference & transfer to a new Blog/Forum. I do respect Blair and if should ever ask me too remove this post I will of course do so. 11/19/07
Hello everyone. I am writing this one last blog entry to let you all know this site will be taken down one week from today. This decision is pivoted on my eagerness to cut all ties from me to the porn industry. I am also deleting my MySpace. For those of you who will be sad to see me go, I am sorry. Life is more valuable than I thought before. The past year has taught me so much.
I have grown as a person, as an artist, and as a spiritual being. The lessons learned were sometimes very expensive and very hard to swallow, but I learned them and I am better equipped now than I was before to take on the battles that life gives me. What seemed important a year ago seems at best futile now and at worst downright insignificant.
Family. Friends. Love. Joy. Freedom. Hard work. Dreams. Nothing is more important than those. The most important is love. I know, I know. It sounds a little trite and somewhat hypocritical for me to say something that has been paraphrased from the “Good Book” countless times throughout history. If there is anything I took away from the oppression of dogmatic religious philosophy is this: when everything is going wrong; when the entire world is crumbling under your feet all you have to do is throw a little love in the storm and it uncompromisingly happens to cease. I have learned that the hard way more times than one.
Love for the past year has been divvied up in this manner: love from me went out to things such as money, fame, recognition, escapism, drama, victimization, rationalization, and exploitation of my own body. As disgraceful as it all sounds, it was who I was. Those things have lost their flow of affection from me quite abruptly within the last few weeks. It is funny what the human mind will do to survive. Rationalization was my middle name for the past year. I am not complaining by any means. I am just trying to tell you that I have changed. I cannot expect to escape without explaining what I changed from and what I changed into.
It has been said that money is the root of all evil. I would refine that to say that the root of all evil is the love of money, not necessarily money itself. Money has done great and wonderful things to help people gain control of their lives, to fight poverty, to fight disease, to fight hunger, and to build safe homes for homeless youth. Money, my friends, is not evil.
The system could do itself some good to work the kinks out of itself, but as far as money itself is concerned, it is not evil. However, once people start loving money more than people, damages arise and hearts are shredded into morsels for the heathens that feed off of the vulnerable and weak.
That is who I was, though. I can say that the soul inside me is still the same. The darkness could not compete with the light inside me. I have learned so much. I know more now than before. I guess that is the only way I have changed. I have gained valuable knowledge about the world, business, love, lust, and most importantly about myself. Learning about yourself is the most difficult thing to do. You must allow your walls to come down and look deep inside yourself without reservation and really take a scalpel to who you are and what you want and do not want.
Basically the thing I need to do now that I have learned who I am is to uphold myself to a higher standard than before. I am taking down this short lived site in hopes of severing any ties to the porn industry. I am also deleting my myspace page as “Blair” and when the time comes I will put up a music page with all the music I will be creating in college and at home. I am also going to be putting up a bran spanking new website devoted to the promotion and merchandising of my music, art, video projects, and much, much more.
I am no longer a sex object. A year ago I thought that to become a sex object was the ultimate goal in life. Now I know that it is a silly and unsubstantial life. One of which I shall not pursue violently anymore. I will appreciate what I have and acknowledge what I do not have. But, I know I have better things to offer the world than my body alone. My mind, spirit, love, and creativity will by far supersede my looks in life span and in measure.
To all of you who have supported me thus far, thank you. You have pushed me to this next level I am about to go to.
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